Today as I continue on my journey through grief, missing my twin, am so grateful for an outlet to share my pains, joys and triumphs. For the many of you who have visited I hope it encourages you and helps you, if it does I suggest you please leave a comment on the site. My desire is that this blog will eventually be made out into a book in her memory to help many more around the world.
It has been suggested that going over it all means more and prolonged pain and my response is clear that for 18 months I tried to suppress it and it only got worse. We deal with grief in different ways and each approach has its validity in so far as it helps us cope better.
Through all the pain and the loss am experiencing, the greatest comfort comes from one knowledge, that she saw before she passed on and she has gone to that glorious room in heaven.
How do I feel today? Still raw, numb and reclusive but more determined to ensure that the ideals for which she, Folashade lived will be fulfilled. I am determined that her memory will never die, I am determined that the gap she has left is occupied and I am determined to support her husband and kids.
I visited her memorial website recently and was heartened to see over 10,000 people had visited it, I am glad that she touched so many lives.
I feel bad, however, that I have not visited her grave in recent times, I hope to visit in the next week. I am so overwhelmed with work but I need to see a clear way forward as I stumble around in what appears to be the dark.
Olu
ReplyDeleteAbout 18 months after I had a bereavement I decided to keep a diary (it was before blogs were invented). I found it really helped me and others in the same situation when I shared it with them later. Sharing your pain and working through it can only be of benefit to you and others. God bless you. x
My dear Rev,
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing that with me, very helpful to know am not just being silly and indulgent and that some one understands, you are God sent.
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