The struggle continues was a popular refrain or slogan, depending on what side of the arena you sat, when I was at University. I had become interested in student's union activities right from secondary school, the legendary King's College, Lagos and continued the interest into University.
I had always fantasised about being a radical, I scribbled pictures of myself on desks and labelled myself 'Oje the Power' or 'Oje the Pirate' with an eye patch over my eye for effect, but the reality when I was temporarily rusticated (but reinstated) from University did not exactly match the parameters of my fantasy. The label was to fade away with time to be replaced with that of 'Panaf'.
My twin was extremely concerned about my 'militant tendencies' and her response to my rustication was to break down in tears. My twin never cried for she was as hard as boots, so to shed a tear means how much we meant to each other.
Today's gym session was filled with sadness and I shed a tear or two, it is hard, so so hard, but I keep saying there is light at the end of the tunnel, I know there is, because my redeemer lives, for without that belief where will I turn to?
I am glad I finally got my prayer newsletter off yesterday, it should be at least every quarter but I have not written one for months, this is not good enough and I must do better. I travel to meet with other co-directors of Friends International tomorrow and from there travel out abroad for a few days.
I am so far short from the man I should be in every department or area, but I know with God's help, the struggle does not just continue but Victoria Acerta, ad infinitum!
Dear Dr Olu, I found myself meditating about loss/death today. Perhaps, more because 10 years ago today, many lives were lost in the 9/11 terrorist attacks but I found comfort in this saying and I thought I should share this with you. "Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal" (Irish headstone). No one can truly grasp the strong bond between twins but I am glad that through this blog we might understand this more and most importantly that it might help those who are dealing with the feelings of loss of a twin or a loved one.
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Dear Olumide,
ReplyDeleteI thank you very much for your helpful and encouraging comments, thank you for taking the time to share, it does make such a difference to me. I look forward to seeing you soon. Olu